waiting is the hardest part

Tom Petty was right. The waiting is the hardest part.

I'm not good at it. I freely admit patience is not my strong suit. I'm the kind of person that sizes up a situation and makes a decision. My husband is the opposite, and we drive each other bonkers. He once took an entire summer to make a stereo purchase. All summer.  The summer was spent driving from store to store, comparing, contrasting, waiting for just the right moment to get the best deal. It's not that he doesn't part with money easily - he makes spur-of-the-moment purchases all the time. But when it is a bigger ticket item, he stews, sleeps on it, researches it. I do a little bit of leg work and decide. Period.

Both ways have their pros and cons. My husband is very comfortable with his final purchase, knowing it was well thought out and he got exactly what he wanted to make him happy. On the other hand, he went all summer without a stereo. In my view, he could have been enjoying it sooner if he hadn't been so anal about it. This is what drives us bonkers about each other. If there is a major purchase to be made, I say, "We need a new refrigerator? (or car, or whatever) Let's go get one." I feel confident enough in my decisions that I can go out, maybe check one or two stores, and make the purchase. The fridge is on it's way the next day. Granted, I may find a better deal a couple of days down the road, but my food isn't rotting in a cooler. I'm happy enough.

So, needless to say, it's not easy when I HAVE to wait. I've done all I can, but the decision is not mine to make. I'm working on a documentary project, with what I believe will be some of the most talented people out there. We've got everything in place, all our ducks in a row, we're chomping at the bit, ready to burst through the gate - any more trite sayings? - but there's one caveat: no money. The funding we thought was coming dried up. So we are all out there, trying to see if we can find a new fountain of revenue. And I wait. Present our information and wait some more. I'm really not at my happiest in this position, but what can I do?

Speaking of waiting, my coffee is finished brewing. At least I don't have to wait any more for that.